Where have I come from, and what was the purpose of my coming?

I have witnessed the growth of other creatures, the growth of plants and animals, and even the birth and growth of humans. I have seen that the passage of time leads to the intellectual and physical development of humans. I saw how my grandfather, after a hundred and some years, became old and frail, and I saw him pass away.

When I search my mind, it seems very strange to me, but I remember a memory like a dream, maybe from when I was under two years old. And of course, only that one memory from that time remains, very vague and unclear. I remember a baby in the arms of my mother or grandmother, and I was curious about him and was asking questions. Later, I learned that he was my brother and that he lived for only about twenty days.

The next memories I somewhat recall are the path above our house in the village "Sukhteh Qolak." The wet ground from the rain, the freshly sprouted grass, and me searching for "lalak." And similarly, scattered memories of the mountains and springs and the four- or five-year-old girls my age in the village. Then, our family trip to Iran and the hat that, at my grandmother's insistence, I threw away on the way, and I cried for it for a while afterward.

When I was a teenager and my grandfather talked about the passage of time, it was interesting to me, but I did not believe it. He used to say that I was your age and did such and such things, and it felt like it was just yesterday! I thought it was impossible for my grandfather to have passed his time so quickly. Since the time I knew him, he was always old, with a nearly white bifurcated beard and a cane in hand.

Now more than thirty years have passed since my grandmother's death and twenty years since my grandfather's passing. Three uncles and two aunts have also passed away. I have experienced childhood, adolescence, and youth, and now I am in middle age. Maybe from the earliest days when I could think, I had understood that one day I would also die, but I always thought my turn was far away. And maybe I didn't think about it at all, in fact, I wanted to think like that! Even now, I live as if I am eternal. Maybe one of the advantages of not knowing one's lifespan is that you remain hopeful until the last moment of life!

In reality, the probability of death for a twenty-year-old young person and a ninety-year-old elderly person on an ordinary day is not much different. Some events in life prevent the completion of a normal human life cycle. Just look at deaths caused by accidents or wars, and we see that youth and even childhood are not guarantees of our survival.

On the other hand, when you look at the lifespan of humans, you realize that only a few can live over a hundred years. The exact number is 0.01 percent, meaning only one in ten thousand people has the chance to live over a hundred years. This means that in the present era, we can consider a hundred years as the maximum lifespan for the majority of people.

Even now, as I do these calculations, something in my heart still tells me: these numbers are not for you, it's as if I am eternal! Then, when I want to think logically and convince myself that I am also among this majority of people, this thought comes to my mind: your day of death cannot be today! And even tomorrow cannot be! You will definitely be alive this month and this year! Perhaps this certainty comes from the fact that it has always been this way, and my mind does not believe that this flawless cycle will one day come to an end!

In the film "Tenet," a famous phrase is repeated several times: "What we don't know is our advantage!" And I think in terms of lifespan, not knowing is my advantage to live peacefully. Sometimes I tell myself if my date of death was known, could I continue my normal life? If, like in the film "In Time," there was a timer on my hand showing my lifespan, could I continue living as I do now? My answer is no. I don't know your answer, but since humans share countless commonalities, you probably don't want to know the end of your life either.

If we are to stop searching, religions can help us. They say live according to a certain belief and die in peace! They divide life into this world and the hereafter and promise eternal life. The followers of religions are also much more than those who do not believe in anything. In fact, we humans seek peace, and a definite answer to our fundamental questions can bring us peace.

But what if we seek reasons and causes? Which science can answer? How do we know that holy books are really divine? Every religion and belief system relies on basic principles that if you question those principles, all your beliefs will collapse!

Some also say you only live once, enjoy every moment of it! What doesn't change is that we always want to enjoy life! One person wants to do something in this world based on their beliefs to enjoy another place. Another wants to seize the moment and achieve their dreams in this world. Maybe we can't get answers to our endless questions soon, but we can live in a way that, regardless of belief, we feel secure and satisfied together.

Life is precious and it passes whether you want it to or not ... Strive to ensure it doesn't go to waste.